May 11, 2009

Full Circle

When I first started this blog, I wrote a post about how I love the show Scrubs and how I always felt that it helped me deal with law school. I first got into the show in my first semester and I have been watching it ever since. I even have all the (available) seasons on DVD. Now, as fitting as it could possibly be, both the show, and law school have ended.

I didn't intend for this to happen as it did. Recently, I have been watching the newest episodes on demand on Sunday nights in bed, and tonight was no different. But, was I wasn't expecting was the last episode of the season, and, very likely, of the show. It was fairly emotional for me because I feel like I know the characters so well, like I have grown up with them. And in a way, I have. When I first got here I was just a scared little man not sure about who he was or what he wanted. I hadn't experienced what it was like to really know fear and doubt. And just like Zach Braff's character in the first episode, I very quickly learned that things were NOT going to go like I expected. I discovered that the one, and only, thing I could count on to help me get through this all were my friends.

I didn't know my roommate before law school but without him I really don't know if I could have survived this all. We are so alike and still so different. The insecurities, fears, beliefs, and desires were all there. More importantly though, no one has made me laugh more, or think more. We're not quite as close as JD and Turk from the show, but it's close. I know he'd never say it aloud (like Dr. Cox) but I know he's really going to miss me, and I'll be the sappy dork and probably say something corny (but sincere) when we finally say goodbye.

I didn't know that the episode I would be watching tonight was a finale, but I'm glad it was. My final 2 tests in law school are Monday and Tuesday, then I am driving back to Salt Lake and leaving this all behind. The show tonight talked about the different ways people say goodbye and the way that people want to be remembered. I have so many memories of people, places, experiences and feelings, some good and some bad. But I will even look back on the bad ones fondly because they are part of the whole experience that I have had here. But more than that, they will help me make choices about my future. I'm sad the show is likely over, but it feels somewhat fitting, like it knows that it has helped me get through this and now I need to go out and start the rest of my life. This really is the end of a chapter, and I don't know what will happen next.

So here we are, 2 1/2 years later. I'm 27, graduating from law school, no job locked down yet, and moving home while I study for the bar exam in July...I need a new TV show.

1 comment:

Dan said...

Oooh!Oooh! Discovery Channel is about to premier a show where engineers build cars with decked out with weapons that fight to the death. It's like the Twisted Metal video game come to life. ...I'm stoked

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