February 16, 2007

I knew there'd be a Police song to describe my feelings....

King of Pain. OK, no, not really...
So Lonely, while more depressing, it fits better.

I made a really good and close friend when I first got here, and I mean from day #1. We dated for 2 months, broke up, then I went home for the holidays. We came back, had some awesome times, thought about getting back together, then she started dating someone else and I went from seeing her every day and hanging out 3-5 times a week, to seeing her almost every day and hanging out 1-2 times per week.

I have more friends now but it will take some time to get to the same level that she and I were at. (Yes, I just ended a sentence with a preposition). I freakin love my friends and they have really been there for me in my time(s) of need, so I don't know why I still feel so lonely. And maybe it's not really loneliness, maybe it's just her and that will take some time to get past, which, in my mind, is sort of a dichotomy. I don't want to fret over her anymore, but at the same time, I don't want her to think that I don't care about her, because I really do. It also doesn't help that my new friends and her don't exactly see eye to eye. I told her yesterday that I missed her, but not in a girlfriend way, just in a laugh-at-the-idiots, going-to-Walmart-on-Sunday-nights sort of way. She said she missed me too, and I believe her. Maybe I just need a new someone...

And why are all my friends girls? I don't really mind, but it would be nice to hang with someone who doesn't have all those girly parts. I guess I didn't make any guy friends last semester because I had her and wasn't really interested in making new friends. (please reference the title of my blog...)

So, to conclude, thank you to my friends, you all kick ass and have saved my ass on numerous occasions! Let's have another shot of Patron!!

"Did that blow your mind, because that just happened"


Sari said...

Sometimes it takes time to get over someone, no matter how much you want to. You don't NEED someones new and you shouldn't just replace, you should overcome. This takes time and you get to take as much of it as you want, i don't care what anyone says about a time frame. That is crap, take all the time you need.

All your friends are girls because you are a stud.

If you want to laugh at morons on a sunday night at wal-mart call me and i will go with you, i won't buy anything because wal-mart is evil and you should cease shopping there, but mocking people is fun.

Ally said...

It takes time... but I swear it'll get better. The loneliness/emptiness will fade. It may not happen all at once... or for a while, but it will.

[If it makes you feel any better.... it took me almost 2 months to get over jon and that was with a clean break and absolutely no contact whatsoever]

I was going to say pretty much everything Sari already covered... so not to copy her I'll just say ditto for the most part.

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